It Is Done.

I finished it! The final short in my collection. City of the Damned is finally completed.  ♥‿♥
It's actually sort of a weird feeling, because as I've said before - I didn't really expect to finish. I'm terrible for starting a ton of projects and not finishing them, and when I set out to do this the ending was something really far off to me. Sure, maybe I'll write those stories... but ages away. It's not happening for ages.
And now it's happened, and I guess I'm really proud. There have been a hell of a lot of half-finished stories since I was little - this is the first thing I've actually completed. That sounds terrible, but it's true. So in a way this gap year was to prove to myself (and everyone who said I couldn't do it) that I can finish things, and therefore can maybe be an author. ✖‿✖

Now I just have to edit everything. I guess it'll take a while, but for the first time I'll be able to read all the stories in order and see how it all flows. And then, figure out how to get it onto an ebook. I have some ideas for the typeface and the way I want it laid out, it's just formatting/coding it all to do that. And then everyone can read it, which is slightly terrifying.
I'm at once concerned about people hating it and it being completely ignored. Really, I'm not sure which is worse! I mean, I'd really rather not be responsible for more horrible literature hitting the market, but it sucks to have your work ignored.
Toss a coin.

At least while it is unpublished I can imagine that people will actually like it. :> I'm so lame.

Next, I'll get around to posting those Harry Potter photos. While I'm editing I might also post a couple of things I've been considering - namely my opinions on certain topics/why I include them in my stories, maybe some politics thrown in for good measure, and also how exactly I wound up wanting to be an author. My work with the birds came to an end (I only had eight months) and it's really sad; I miss them a lot! But I will still visit and see them, and meet up with everyone for drinks, so it's not as though I don't have plenty of time on my hands.
I really need to find a job. But I've been putting it off because Mum, Dad, can't you see I'm a writer??

And with that sentence I became the laziest gap year student in existence.

Words Are Awesome: Mark Two

A continuation of my previous post. Have some more interesting words! I enjoy all of these, and recommend using them with unadulterated abandon.

♥Avarice - greed.
♥Bellicose - aggressive, hostile. Currently being chucked around by the media in relation to North Korea.
♥Bleb - learned this one in Biology! It's a little bubble.
♥Cirrous - resembling slender tentacles or filaments.
♥Fescennine - extremely rude. Therefore, a stronger version of agrestic.
♥Finnimbrun - a trifle, a trinket.
Harbinger - a herald, a forewarning.
♥Jejune - childish.
♥Masticate - no, nothing like that! It means 'to chew'.
♥Mesonoxian - related to midnight.
♥Nacreous - relating to mother-of-pearl, pearlescent.
♥Otiose - without a practical purpose.
Pejorist - someone who reckons the world is going down the drain. Me, then. 
♥Perspicacious - being very perceptive.
♥Requiem - a mourning song, a funeral song.
♥Sidereal - relating to stars.

I will get around to uploading all the Harry Potter photos soon! It's just there are a lot of them and effort, but! What I really wanted to say (and should have said before) was that Quantum Entanglement is completely finished and now I'm on the final short! It's been renamed 'Spidermusings', which is at once apt and a casual abuse of the english language.
It's also so nearly done. It's been a lot of fun too - it's from the point of view of a particularly nasty and unreliable narrator; and getting into his head has been pretty interesting. However there is now about one more thought-track to write and I cannot find the motivation to do so. Never mind that this is the last story in the collection that I have left to write, it's the culmination of almost a year's work.
I'm so damn useless.

However; my next update will probably be that I've finished the collection! Which is really rather exciting - I'll have to edit/copyedit, and I'll finally be able to read the whole thing in the order it was intended. Then, I can somehow learn how to make it an ebook and publish it.
Which is a really scary thought.

I also drew this picture of Lilia, because gas masks are awesome.
For those who are interested, the lines by this were originally drawn by hand. Then I scanned it into Photoshop and utilised the 'multiply' setting on the layer, so that I could colour below it. Then, I continued detailing over the top. I'm quite proud of this one! ♥‿♥

Darkroom

Today, I'm going to talk about two things. First, a piece of software that's been helping my writing no end, and next a little bit about my work with birds for those who are interested.

The software is called Darkroom, and it's free to download. What it is, is a writing environment with no distractions. This is excellent for me and my kindred spirits, the notorious procrastinators of this world. Microsoft Word or Open Office can be distracting because of all the buttons, the options, the fact that the start bar with Firefox is still there... you get the idea! When you open Darkroom you'll see a completely black screen. When you type, it will be in green. I was skeptical at first, because I thought this combination would hurt my eyes, but it doesn't in any way. It's easy to get sucked into writing with this, and my productivity has probably increased ten-fold by using it. If you can't see distractions, it takes much more effort to be distracted!
The only downside is that formatting, such as adding italics, has to be done in a Word/Open Office document. I paste my work into Open Office and made necessary edits there at the end of the day. Darkroom saves as you go so it's pretty hard to lose work, and even if you close the program and opt not to save it to a .txt file, when you next open it your work will still be there.

You can download Darkroom here!

But next, I thought I'd talk a little about my work.



If you follow me on Twitter, you'll know that I work with various animals - in particular, corvids, and in particular Eurasian jays. These are some of them! Washington in the top-left and bottom-right, and Lisbon in the other pictures.
They live in a huge outdoor aviary with options for hiding inside or sheltering from rain, and I help run studies on their behaviour. They're so much fun to work with - every single bird has a different personality, and I love them all! It doesn't help that they're so cute.
Some will fly down to sit on my hand or take worms from me, others prefer me to toss them up for them to catch. Jeru, or Jerusalem, is particularly nifty at that. My personal favourite is Lima, the vainest bird - he loves the sound of his own voice, and sings whenever he sees me. Because it's breeding season, the birds have also started to talk. They can repeat all kinds of noises - so far I've had ambulance sirens, wolf-whistles repeated back to me, 'oy-oy-oy', 'hello... hello... hello...' and 'Liiima, Liiima'. I know for a fact that one bird can say extremely rude things, but I haven't had chance to hear him yet as he lives in another aviary. Jeru also makes a downright maniacal laughing sound, which is funny because she's the smallest and cutest bird.
She also has a habit of doing a poo every time she sees me, before flying over for worms. I take it as a sign of love.

And they are incredibly clever. As in, I knew corvids were clever (that's the crow family), but I didn't think they were this clever. Observing them is a real privilege. And after working with them since October, they've started to trust me. This job just makes me incredibly happy. ♥‿♥

I've met so many people from different places through it, as well as different animals. Oliver the fox, Russell the crow, a magpie and a wagtail and a wild jay who hangs around outside the aviaries. Scrub jays, rooks and jackdaws as well as my favourite Eurasian jays.
And that's about it! It's great because the welfare of the birds is taken into account all the time, one hundred percent, and they're all so happy. The best part is when they sit in their pairs on the branches and puff themselves up. 'I love you this much!'



Tomorrow I'm off to the Harry Potter studios, which I'm incredibly excited for! Harry Potter was just about my entire childhood, and was what made me want to be a writer. So, I'll blog about that pretty soon, and include lots of pictures for once. :>



Character Development Tips

Sort of promised in my earlier 'Assorted Writing Tips' post, I finally got around to creating this! Some of the things I do to make well-developed, non-Mary-Sue characters. At least, I'm pretty sure they aren't Mary Sues! Everyone who reads my material tells me they aren't when I ask and I have a set of friends who are brutally honest about everything,  so I'm taking that as a I-actually-do-pretty-well-at-character-dev.
I've been writing for a long time! Since I was eight, I wanted to be an author. And, just like everyone, I've made some unintentionally horrible characters. Characters that make me cringe now! 'How did I ever think this was a good idea, reading this is painful' kind of cringing.
I've also made some intentionally horrible characters as jokes, see Fuschia Jones.
So, here we go. ~

First, an incredibly useful resource. It's the Mary Sue Litmus test, found here! It's also pretty fun to do - I put most of my characters through it to procrastinate on stuff.
I suppose what is needed now is a definition of Mary Sue. If you already know, skip this section~

A Mary Sue is, quite simply, a perfect character - and sadly, they are rampant. Especially amongst younger writers - including younger me!
They are born out of author favouritism. A Mary Sue is, normally, without flaw - if any are present, it only serves to make the character more appealing to the audience or really detracts nothing from their overall character. An example is Bella Swan from Twilight - her only real flaw is 'clumsiness'. All this does is make her more attractive to Edward Cullen (another Mary Sue) who feels as though he has to protect her even more.
In fact, why not use Bella and Edward's whole characters as the definition of Mary Sue? Meyer's vampires are also the definition of a Mary-Sue species. They get all the strengths of most vampires - super fast, super strong, perfect predators, immortal - and none of the weaknesses (turning to ash in the sun.) For an already overpowered species like a vampire, this was always the great equaliser. But Meyer's vampires can also elect to drink only animal blood, allowing them to be unequivocal good guys and never really have to toe grey moral boundaries!

A Mary-Sue character gets everything. They always win. They are often the most beautiful and may even lament their beauty 'as a curse' (presenting something that isn't a flaw as a flaw, common tell-tale), or refuse to accept compliments as a forced show of modesty. They are the best at everything, or get extremely good at things very quickly without much effort. Nothing really goes wrong for them, at least, nothing drastic (though another tell-tale is them having an extremely tragic past and either dwelling on it constantly to force pity, or being completely unaffected by it.) They save the day more than any of the other characters combined, their abilities make them extremely overpowered in their respective world. Often the character will be a blatant self-insert of the author, who wishes they were as great as this character. In short, they are EXCRUCIATINGLY ANNOYING.

We don't want to be writing any of those.

A well developed character is one you can imagine as a real person. Riddled with imperfections and flaws, but real. Don't be scared to write outside of the good/evil box - not everything is black and white. Characters can make questionable decisions, suffer from flawed logic, frantically try to justify themselves even when there is no justification - or simply revel in the fact that there is no justification. Just because they're a flawed, terrible person, it doesn't mean they are a bad character. They can be an extremely well-developed character, warts and all, and even if you would never be friends with them in real life it shouldn't stop you appreciating them as a character.

So, focus on imperfection.
Not every character has to be perfectly beautiful! I already focused in my writing tips post on not being cliche about your descriptions, and cliche descriptions are a hallmark of the Sue.
Exploit the flaws.
Exploit them to the maximum! Yes, each character has good points - determination, courage, intelligence, kindness - but flaws are so much more interesting. Is your character a coward who only redeems himself after a valiant struggle to be brave? Or do they fail? Does the flaw overwhelm them? Don't be scared to have a character lose!
Or, are they a brave character who loses their nerve at a vital moment, and fails?
Are they arrogant and cocky? Do they hide away their emotions behind a mask of indifference, only to have it crumble and them despair? Do they recover from this, or not? Are they manipulative little shits who get tangled in their own web of lies? Do they have a big mouth?
And if so - why do they have a big mouth?

Why is your character they way they are? This is perhaps the most important question of all! WHY is your character as they are, and how is this motivating their current actions and desires?
I cannot stand characters who have no motivation for what they are doing in stories!  We don't do things for no reason at all. I especially resent characters who are evil 'just because.'
Why?
To create three-dimensional, realistic characters, you have to understand real humans. I never write a character who is 100%, 50%, even 10% me. But a lot of them will have an aspect of myself, one that I understand and can apply to them. Some of them have aspects of my friends or family, or other people I know.
For example. (Using characters from my upcoming trilogy, the Light Age)
Hoy is a loud-mouth. He's obnoxious, he bigs himself up, sometimes tries to put others down. He exaggerates his own achievements, acts all tough. His big mouth gets him into a whole heap of bother when he picks fights with the wrong person or winds up having to actually walk the talk. Because underneath it all, Hoy is a massive coward, and cannot follow through on his boasts.
The reason he has a big mouth and tries to act tough is that he is fundamentally ashamed of his cowardice.
His father was extremely disappointed in him. He wanted his son to be strong and tough, but Hoy simply was not. Even after the death of his father Hoy values people based on courage and strength - qualities he doesn't really possess for himself. So he acts like it, he puffs himself up and struts around, tries to make everyone see him as brave and strong so that maybe he himself can believe it.
He just wants his father to be proud.
That's his motivation. That's the reason why he is the way he is.

(Yes, Hoy ultimately overcomes his cowardice. Even though it's the hardest thing in the world for him to do. Never let it be said that my characters always meet bad ends or fail!)

On the other hand, Rosita.
She's the 'big bad' of the series, the military dictator who rose to power on the back of a wave of lies. Extremely intelligent, genius-level intelligent - and arrogant as hell.
Her intelligence bred arrogance, in this case. She was light-years ahead of her peers, and ultimately came to see them as beneath her. She values people based on intelligence, and sees herself as worth more than everyone else. And once you put yourself above others, you can be cruel to them without feeling a shred of guilt.
You see it as your right - and ultimately, via a long and complicated series of events that I won't explain here, she comes to see power as her right too.
She wasn't always bad - in fact, she sees herself as being one hundred percent in the right. She was always a grey character, a grey-area. Her parents were industrialists who instilled in her the belief that personal profit meant more than anything else - the world's a shark-fight, biggest fish win. If not her, then someone else. As a rather high-functioning sociopath, she is only able to care about herself. And this vanity and narcissm, plus her intelligence-generated-arrogance, led her to do terrible things to other people for personal gain.
She doesn't see anything wrong with it. I was going for a WW2-holocaust type theme here - once you see someone as beneath you, you can do the most terrible things to them. It's almost sad - she could have done extraordinary things for the good of all, but circumstance and her upbringing and the way her mind was wired shaped her into a selfish little madam. It could have been different.
But in the end, for all her intellect, Rosita's arrogance is her downfall.

You see? It's so much more interesting to have fundamentally flawed characters, rather than super-talented-super-pretty-super-modest-always-the-hero characters. The only way you could have a super-talented-super-pretty character is if they were not super-modest. If you're very good at many things and extremely pretty to boot, you are probably not going to be modest. It's more likely that you are going to be an arrogant little so-and-so.

This is another thing that upsets me. Inconsistent or unrealistic characterisation.
If your character is big-mouthed and bolshy and dishes out verbal retribution to others, it's likely that this won't always be justified. Sometimes they're going to be mean, say things that go too far or are undeserved. Otherwise they aren't really big-mouthed, they're just overly righteous.
Think about real people, and how real people really are!  We're all complicated, and we're all individual. Try thinking about yourself, and all the facets of your personality. You know yourself better than anyone else. Why are you the way you are? What happened to you to make you this way? What are you doing now? What is the reason you are doing this?

So, in short - ask questions! Ask lots of questions! Questions are good.  ♥‿♥
And never be afraid to write a character who isn't the 'norm'. They don't have to be beautiful - they could be rather unattractive. And that's okay.
Maybe that unattractive character could be pretty hung up over it? Maybe they apply tons of make-up to feel beautiful - is that really so abnormal in today's image-obsessed society? Maybe they act as though they don't care, but really do? Or maybe, they genuinely do not care. Looks are just not important to this character, and they aren't going to go out of their way to look any better.

Limitless possibilities! Just have fun with them! ♥‿♥
If you aren't having fun, why are you writing in the first place?

Whoops, this post was longer than intended. I'll think of more things to post soon! ~
I hope it was useful.


Spring Is Here~

Life is skittles, life is beer~
Spring is my favourite time of the year!
I think so, don't you?
You do? 'Course you do!

After a stupidly long winter, it's finally sunny and sort-of warm again! Ate the first strawberries of the year. They were huge! And I'm actually able to sit outside some, which is amazing. Winter is the worst season for me purely because I end up stuck inside because I can't stand cold.

In actual news, Shadows on a Wall is complete. Straight on to Quantum Entanglement. Hello, horrific moral quandaries and assorted angst.
Ten down, two to go.
Also, Margaret Thatcher died. People seem to be throwing parties. Ding, dong, the witch is dead? Not very classy, if you ask me - but then, what do I know?

Shamefully Delayed Updates

I guess I've been a little busy with everything, all things considered. Sorry, poor neglected blog!
But, things have been happening.
I have completed Viral Heart, which to me is a massive achievement (forgive the probably unattractive narcissism?) It's strange, but when I set out to write this collection of shorts, it was this story that I could  never see myself completing. It was as though it was too big for me. I knew what I wanted to happen in it, but I didn't know how to link it together or even how to write it. It was always this far-away thing, off in the distance, 'yeah I'm totally going to do this after everything else' thing.
I've never been a completer-finisher, not really. I get bored of old ideas, get new ones, start those, then never finish them. Perhaps that's why I made this blog. So that if I didn't finish this damnable project I'd have all this to feel guilty about.

Viral Heart was always going to be the 'event horizon', and I've passed it. I'm finally on the home straight! (Three months after my original deadlines for myself, oops) Inspiration strikes at the strangest times. There are three more stories left to tell, and they are all about 50% complete at this point. I'm currently working on Shadows on a Wall, the final story, because it leads chronologically on from Viral Heart (yeah, I guess it's pretty complicated.) I am now extremely excited for Quantum Entanglement, as it's taken a far darker turn. Think Joseph Mengele and the mentality behind the Nazi soldiers who had to work at the concentration camps. It's going to be equal parts fun and horrific to write, I think.

Viral Heart numbers exactly thirty-nine A4 pages, size ten. Thus, I have dubbed it the longest short story in history. I can't think of one off the top of my head that is longer, and I'm not counting novellas here ;> Sssh, let me have this one?

So, left to do, I have:
Finish: Shadows on a Wall, Quantum Entanglement, Tears Become Raindrops
Edit: We've Lost Our Moral Compass (ew),Viral Heart, the above.
Final edits/copy-editing: the entire collection. This is going to be fun.

I've also been having vague ideas for a novella series after the collection/written as relief alongside my trilogy. Based loosely around the seven deadly sins (fully aware this in itself is not the most original concept, but what I've got planned for it is going to be.) It wasn't even meant to be based off the sins, it just sort of turned out that way. The main two ideas I have going on are Burnout/Little Grey Box, which would qualify under 'wrath' - and Narcissus, which is obviously going to be 'pride'. They're set in a near-future Britain, specifically London, where unemployment and mob violence and youth gangs are rife. Basically, the way Britain's going at the moment! Burnout stars a young, unnamed female anti-hero with a penchant for arson, uneducated but definitely not ignorant, and doesn't end well at all. Bit of a comment on the demonisation of youth, I suppose, as well as the way society likes to fit everyone into neat little boxes. Narcissus, on the other hand, stars a handsome young man with delusions of grandeur, who ultimately finds that he cannot match his imagined reality and can never become perfect.
It also doesn't end well.
But then, none of my stories ever do. :>

I'm totally aware of what I said at the top of the post, and this will not be started until COTD is complete. Scout's honour.

Will try to post more often with updates. It's getting exciting now!




Hello, March! ♥

Well hello there. :>
Sorry for no updates, my laptop finally gave up the ghost and I had to splurge on a new one e__e Fortunately, I'd saved some money for uni and seeing as this will be used for uni I could justify it. It's infected with the disease-like Windows 8, but I've managed to get around it and the keyboard is ever so nice for typing on!

I've been working on another short lately - Viral Heart. It's quite possibly the nastiest, darkest one so far (and considering themes to the others include mindwipes, suicide and just about everything else) so, it's quite exciting!
I also had a really nice couple of days with my writing buddy Artemis Timms, watching Lord of the Rings (as she hadn't seen it yet which is a complete travesty) and discussing story ideas. :>

In lieu of an actual post, here's something I doodled up today. It's the main character from my novel; and I was bored. Introducing: Lilia. Messy hair and all. First digital art in a long long time!


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